For every moment of doubt...

For each time I made you feel less
than...

Forgive me.

For every tear...

for every time you reached out...

and I turned away...

please forgive me.

I can't describe my inner struggle
put voice to my doubts...
and my fears...

the nights I laid awake wishing for
and wanting you...

shackled to my past
and afraid of the damage
I knew I had done
to you...and to us.

I beg your forgiveness...
for not admitting

that your love...
is the love
I've always wanted...

the love I've always needed...

and the gift I had prayed for
each and every day.

Forgive me...
for in my blindness
I lost sight of the one person
who brought me joy...

in whose arms was the safety
and comfort I had always sought...
the one who gave me
unconditional love.

Here with my heart...
and yes...my soul
offered up as sacrifice...

I beg you...

Please...

forgive me.


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